made up lies

i lied

i convince myself that its gonna work somewhere

i told him i'm taken

made up dream guy called "ahmad"

u know wat hurt?

cz it seems like im facing "breaking up" phase once again

again n again

but this time

it felt real

too real

im gasping to get an air

why is this hurting me so much than i thought

i thought its gonna be easy

too real to be truth

he just believed it

he ask me "break with him n coming back to me"

i said "no"

he said "said it outloud"

"Nooo"

but deep inside i wish i could just said "YEEEESSSSS" thousands times if i could...

trust me this is not the kind of break up i want it to be

i cant figure out something dat

will make u believe dat this is actually happening

i want u to hate me

so that it is easier for you to forget me

4give me

this is how our love story begins

-the end-

but.....

its not a lie

it is the truth

i did declare wif "ahmad"

4give me 4 lying

i need to make it

so it will hurt you

later u will hate me

so that ....

u will only wif her

this is how it works

this is my biggest plan of all

to make you hate me